I have often wanted a chance to recreate myself. Haven’t we all? When I think of the road down which I have travelled, I am often left with the feeling that I am still waiting for my life to begin.
Like most young women of my generation, I always thought that growing up meant having a fulfilling career, getting married and having children in that order, though the fulfilling career part would, of course, span the entire course of my productive adult years, and getting married and having children, though being vital to my theme, would be worked in around my satisfying and well paying, job. But that’s not quite what has happened in my life, at least not yet.
And what is wrong with hoping that I might still be able to fulfill at least part of the life plans that I once thought would automatically come to me?I’ve already had children and been married, though not in the way I thought I would, but I most certainly haven’t had anything that even remotely resembles a fulfilling career. If I could find a way to recreate my life at this late stage perhaps this is what I would have to look forward to.
First off I would get out of the relationship that I am in and that holds me back in almost every way. I am saddled with a lazy, ill tempered young man who thinks smoking dope and getting money for nothing is the best life one can have and does what he can to live exactly that. Problem is, its my money most often that fuels his dope smoking, money for nothing lifestyle which while fine for him, does nothing for me. As well, he is so much younger than me that we have almost nothing in common outside of a now waning sex life, and we have no social life to speak of since neither of us are willing to present the other to our friends.
Once rid of the relationship, I would want to get involved in some activities that put me in touch with my creative side. Perhaps a watercolor workshop or a writer’s group. I’d also like to get into meditation, yoga and a spiritual center to focus my spiritual nature. I have seen a group that meets on Sundays that is a new age spirituality organization and would like to try out one of their meetings.
From these I would hope to meet some people, men and women, my own age and who share the same interests. Once having developed some social outlets, I would like to develop a routine of getting out and being with people on a regular basis, perhaps starting a relationship that will hopefully turn into that someone who will be with me in my old, old age. Who knows, I’ve always believed I would get married a third time.
Then, I would like to broaden my employment skills by taking a mental health certificate of diploma program and following my dream to work with people on the fringes of society. Those who would fall through the cracks if were not for social agencies and outreach workers. I have always had a passion for working with people and believe I could make a difference still.
Once my career was established and I had a bit of money that wasn’t earmarked for bills, I would like to be able to do some travelling. I thought that it would be fun to go on those excursions that allow you to volunteer in foreign lands as a way of making the travel experience less expensive. One I’ve always wanted to do is to go to where the sea turtles are born and help them on their journey to the ocean. Any kind of work with animals would be a real vacation so to speak.
Then with all this said and done, I would have truly recreated myself. What do you know? I think I’ve just created a plan for the rest of my life. Thank you blogging prompt. You may have just kick started a beautiful journey